Along with anxiety, I also have an addictive personality. I wouldn’t say this negatively impacts my life, in the way that my anxiety has in the past, but it definitely shapes the way I go about my life.
For as long as I can remember, I have become infatuated with a certain song, film or tv show very quickly. I make snap decisions and will either love something or hate it. If I love it, I become a bit obsessed with it. I will listen to songs on repeat, I will go to the cinema more than once to see a film I love. I will watch tv shows over and over.
It’s not just music and tv either. I also find myself doing the same with people I meet as well. I make up my mind about somebody very quickly and tend to know whether we will get on from the start. In the past, I’ve fallen for the people I’ve dated very quickly, unable to get them off my mind.
I find this aspect of my personality also makes me a bit stuck in my ways when it comes to food, restaurants, hobbies etc. I have to coax myself into trying new things sometimes as I become used to what I know and like.
The most interesting thing I’ve discovered since having children is how areas of your own personality can also be mirrored in them. Cameron likes to listen to the same music on repeat and Carly will watch films over and over again, having to be forced to try watching something new.
As I said, I don’t think having an addictive personality affects me negatively. It does mean that I go into things headfirst when it comes to meeting new people, and I sometimes have to reign it in if I’m a little over the top about something, but generally it’s just something that is a part of me and who I am.