My CBT Journey – Sessions 7-10

So something huge has happened, I have finished my ten sessions of CBT and I actually feel that my anxiety is so much more settled than it was when I started a few months ago at the end of summer. My therapist actually suggested she sign me off during session nine, as I was so much happier, had been overcoming all my obstacles and the whole process seemed to draw...

Keeping my Stress & Anxiety in Check with Thrive 

I’ve made no secret of the fact that I am living with depression and anxiety. I’ve had depression since I was twelve and have come to terms with it to a certain extent but my anxiety was only diagnosed in the last few months. I first realised something was up when I was pregnant with Benjamin. I became convinced that something was wrong with my pregnancy. I was on edge...

Springing into Spring – Feeling More Positive about My Mental Health 

So the start of spring is almost upon us and with it, for me at least, brings lots of plans, motivation and a fresh outlook on life.  I’ve suffered with depression since I was twelve years old. It’s always been there since, even during the high points, like some dark cloud just waiting to come back and cover me.  I’ve tried plenty of different ways to cope with my mental...

An Open Letter to my Best Friend… 

When I saw you this morning on the school run I felt sad. Sad that some of the closeness between us seems to have gone. After we fell out before I vowed to try harder, to be a better friend and to never fall out again… But this time is different, we haven’t fallen out, neither of us have done anything wrong. Depression is a horrible illness and now it’s...

Monday Musings – Why Ed Deserves a Medal 

Anyone who knows me really well will know I am not an easy person to live with.  I’m a typical Taurean, totally stubborn and stuck in my ways. I also let anything and everything get to me. I worry about things to worry about. I exhaust myself.  It takes a special person to take all of this on and love me despite all this. And the above is me normally....

My Happy Place 

Ok so my absolute number one happy place is in fact Disneyland… However, that’s a bit far away and out of reach when you’re as poor as me. So I make do with my second happy place, the beach, which I’m luckily located just a short drive away from #lovewhereilive…  Last night I reached a very low point and unfortunately sleep didn’t cure all. I woke up and struggled to...

Why Christina Aguilera’s “Beautiful” Perfectly Sums up my Mental Illness 

“Every day is so wonderful then suddenly, it’s hard to breathe”… Having suffered from depression since I was twelve, you could say I’ve had some time to ponder how it makes me feel. The thing that I find most difficult, even as someone who is fairly good with words, is trying to get other people to understand how this illness makes you feel. A lot of the time I just...

A Little Update 

I feel like I’ve not blogged in weeks, so much is changing in my life at the moment. You may have noticed I have not been happy in my job for awhile now. It’s too long hours with not enough pay and it’s stopped me from seeing my children and Ed anywhere near enough.  So, enough was enough and finally last Monday morning I plucked up the courage to hand...

My Resolutions for 2016 

Every year I write down my resolutions and every year inevitably at least half of them have failed before January is even over. Instead of vowing to go to the gym every day of the week or saying goodbye to my friend Prosecco, I have a few things I am determined to achieve in 2016 1. Spend more time with my kids Having been working 12 hour shifts lately, I...